Cather In The Rye

I've been reading Catcher in the Rye through eBook. It's a nice novel. I liked it. I like how Holden talk without his cursing of'course. I find him weird or as his prof said to him "strange". I'm only in the 22nd chapter and I have no idea if i'm near the end of the story. One of the words or Holden's expressions that i find funny is "helluvabitch". Of'course i know what "Bitch" means but "helluva" i don't know i have no idea. Anyway, it sounds funny. Maybe after my P.E. class this afternoon, I'll read again that eBook. I will surely read it tonight before I go to bed. It's crazy coz I always wake up in the middle of the night having a palpitation. I hate it. It's not a good feeling. And because I've been reading eBooks lately, I usually sleep late at night. The earliest is 11:00 pm. Gah... sometimes I wonder what if I will not sleep and just read and read and read these eBooks or just surf the net. But I don't wanna do that. I don't wanna end up looking like a zombie next morning! Anyways, I'm not really saying that Holden is the best. I don't really like his negative side. I don't like guys who smoke and drinks liquor. Guys and their vices. I only prefer guys but not with their vices. 

WeirD_DreaM

I had a dream last night. There's this guy ,in my dream his name is connor, with his dad and two of their female friends. The other one is blond while all three of them are brunette. The other blond is crazy in love with his dad but his dad likes the other brunette. His dad is nice and so as connor. At first I didn't know what's really going on. I thought we are just friends or I just happen to bump into them and that they are so nice to let me hang with them. The other weird thing is I don't know where we are. It's a building , an office or something like that, with a lot of doors and stairs and people who works there, no kids. I guess the youngest adults there are me and connor. So here it goes. The blond one who's crazy in lvoe with his dad took the brunette woman and locked them both in a little room with mirrors or something. She said she'd rather erase her than see them together. Gosh ,isn't she crazy.  Then I told his dad what she did and he got worried and you know, he kinda rescue her from a monster or something. It's funny coz he looks good rescuing people from danger. Then I realized that connor is beside me. He asked me if I'm ok. I just nod and didn't say anything. He started holding my left hand. Even thought it's just a weird dream his hand felt so real and his body, too. I just let him hold my hand coz I didn't feel any danger at all. I felt so comfortable being with him. We started walking our way out the building. He kept on looking at his back like someone is after us that might stop us. I knew that the blond woman is out of that little room and that the other brunette woman and connor's dad is hugging each other now, trying to comfort each other. The blond woman saw us. The weird thing is the brunette woman ended up coming after us. She said she loves connor and that she won't let him be with me. I was like *oh, now i know why he's holding my hand . I said "Connor..." but he said "C'mon let go somewhere else." I was like *ok . His dad just smiled and just watched us three. The blond woman is beside him like nothing crazy happened. Connor didn't let go of my hand but this brunette woman tried to take him until he lost his grip of my hand. He ran and the brunette woman ran after him. Then they disappeared. I was all alone in front of the building. I can no longer see his dad or the blond woman. I was all alone. I tried to get back to where his dad is standing but the more I climb the stairs the more I get lost. Until I ended up at the top of the building. You can call it roof top, lol! When I peeked at the bottom it's already dark but I saw these christmas light all over the place like it's christmas already. I thought to myself that I will go home, I gotta go home. On my way down I saw my classmates they all look like they are happy to see me. Like we've never seen each other in years or something. They carry lights and other christmas stuffs and it's beautiful. When I finally got a jeep to ride so I can get home ,I woke up. 

Gah... maybe the key for me to get out of that weird dream is a ride home. It always is. Whenever I dream and whenever I wanna wake up all I have to do is find my way home. And then that's it I wake up. I don't know, I kinda wished to see connor when I wake up. Hah! Too bad it's only a weird dream...a very weird dream.

Google Crome

i know it's a little too late for me to blog about this but i've just installed Google Crome in my pc. I've always wanted to try it ever since i heared it and saw it on net 25. they say it's faster and better. Well, i say yeah so far it is faster. lol! i guess i'll enjoy it for now. ^_^

Why why why

Hindi ko alam kung ano ang all in all comment ko sa Twilight saga. Lalo na sa Breaking Dawn. Okay, i love the first book which is Twilight. Loved it so much that i decided to read the next book, which is New Moon (but i accidentally read the third which is Eclipse first before i realized that it's not New Moon). Then hindi ko na mapigilan ang sarili ko dahil gusto ko na talagang mabasa ang Fourth ang final book na Breaking Dawn. Gusto ko na malaman kung panu naging vampire si Bella at kung sino talaga si Nessie..ooopps! I mean Renesmee. hehe... Then gusto ko ring malaman kung totoo ba talagang in-imprint ni jacob si Nessie. Like the other fans who already finished this saga, medyo nadisappoint din ako. I would rather read/see Jacob black die in the war against werewolves and vampires or whatever maybe in a car accident or something, than to see him imprint on Nessie and be with her. Okay, it's not something you can control but sana man lang may namatay na isa sa kanilang tatlo (Edward, Bella, or Jacob). Ok, Bella died but not really coz she became a vampire,right? Right! sobrang perfect naman di ba kung happily ever after na lang ang lahat. O kaya sana sa iba na lang nag-imprint si jacob, sana hindi na lang kay Nessie. Kay leah na lang o kaya kay Edward na lang hehehe... just kidding!

anyways, favorite ko pa rin ang first book, twilight, and i will surely watch it in theatre when it's out. and if just in case they'll make new moon and eclipse a movie, too. i'd watch it ,too! BUT not Breaking Dawn. alright the part where Bella is burning and her first few days as a newly born vampire is really exciting. imagine yourself being in a vampire's head. that's interesting. but that's it, just that. *sigh*

honestly, i used want Steven Strait play as Jacob Black, but i changed my mind after reading Breaking Dawn. Gosh! it would be so not him, if you know what i mean. well, anyways, i'm just glad it's not steven as jacob. gosh, poor jacob, poor mongrel... lol just kidding hehehe...

V-V

{ U don't know me }

may isang tao... ang tingin ko sa kanya dati ay isang anghel, isang taong lagi kong maaasahan, at napagdesisyonan ko na gagawin ko ang lahat maging proud lang ang taong ito sa akin at mapasaya ko siya. Minsan narinig ko siya. Tinanong niya ako kung bakit nagbago na ako. Hindi naman daw ako ganito dati. Gusto ko siyang sagutin at sabihin lahat ng dahilan ko. Pero kahit kelan ay hindi ako naging magaling sa pagpapaliwanag ng sarili ko lalo na kung ako ay umiiyak na. Mahirap, mabigat, masakit sa puso. Ngayon tila ang tingin niya sa akin ay isa akong napakasamang tao na tila naniniwala siya na magagawa ko ang mga bagay na iniisip niya. Terible! Gawain ng demonyo ang iniisip niya. Demonyong nagatatago sa katawang tao. Demonyong nagpapanggap na tao. Siguro nga'y hindi ako ang pinakamabuting tao sa buong mundo pero MAS sigurado naman ako na hindi din ako ang pinakamasamang tao sa buong mundo. Pero siya, ang taong nagpapahirap sa akin ngayon, pakiramdam ko kahit kelan ay hindi niya ako kinilala. Ang totoong ako, mabuti pa ang ibang mga tao na minsan lang ako makita, mabuti pa sila kilala nila ang tunay na ako.

"Masama daw ako... pwes kung ang pagiging masama ay ang ipagdasal gabi gabi ang kaligtasan at kasiyahan mo, e di masama!
kung ang pagiging masama ay ang masaktan para sa iyo, e di masama!
kung ang masama ay ang paglingkuran ka, e di masama!
kung ang pagiging masama ay ibigay ang isang taon ng buhay ko sa iyo, e di masama!
kung gayon pala ang ibig sabihin sa iyo ng masama e di ako pala ay masama."

marahil ay nagsisi na siya kung bakit nagkaroon pa ng isang taong tulad ko sa buhay niya. Alam ko naman na kahit kelan ay mas mahal niya ang iba kaysa sa akin. hindi ako maganda, hindi pwedeng maging artista, e sino ba naman ang gugustuhing mahalin ang isang walang maamong mukha? lahat naman ng tao ang gusto ay ang may mga maamong mukha, magugustuhan mo lang ang isang tao kung makikilala mo siya ng lubusan at ako, kahit simula pa lang ng ako'y mabuo, pakiramdam ko, hanggang ngayon ay hindi pa rin niya ko kilala. O ayaw lang niya talaga. Makakapili ba ako? Hindi di ba? Kung pwede lang e di sana pumili na lang ako ng ibang - - - - - - - - . Masama bang masaktan? masama ba ang sumama ang loob? wala ba akong karapatan na masaktan kahit minsan? ano ako, bato? walang pakiramdam? kapag ng tao sinabi niyang siya ang manhid, ibig sabihin HINDI siya manhid. natatakot siyang masaktan. Madali siyang masaktan.

Manhid ako! manhid... manhid...!

sana pagdating ng panahon maisip mo na puro sarili mo lang ang iniisip mo. laging ikaw lang at ikaw lang lagi. Ako, nilamon na ng sakit. kinain na ng dilim. tinangay na ng hangin. kinain na ng dagat. na-flash na ng toilet mo! oo nakakatawa kung iisipin mo na literal. isipin mong tulad sa anime'. di ba nakakatawa? pero sa totoo lang napakasakit nito.

hindi ko alm kung kelan bubuti ang pakiramdam ko. hindi ko alam kung kelan ako totoong magiging masaya....

kelan...ngayon ang tanong ko.

Somebody Sing Me A Gospel Song by The Heritage Singers

Somebody Sing Me A Gospel Song
by
the heritage singers

I
Somebody sing me a gospel song
Tell me again that God's love is strong
And I'm forgiven for what I've done wrong
Somebody sing me a gospel song
II
I need a hills of (good harmony/sweet melody)
With words about the hope He's given to me
And that this world is not where I belong
Somebody sing me a gospel song
III
I need a hills of good harmony
Words about the hope He's given to me
Reminding me that by His blood
I'm redeemed and I am loved
whooo....tell me 'bout the reason,tell me 'bout the victory...
'Coz some days like these I know what I need
(Repeat I & II)

IV
Tell me 'bout the singer who came and
Tell me 'bout the miracle moment when He rose again
Sing me a song about Jesus
Sing me a song about His love
Sing with all your might
Every day and night
Sing me a song about Him
(Repeat I & II)

...a gospel song...a gospel song

Tu Amor by RBD lyrics

Tu Amor by RBD

Mi amor I'm not sure of the right words to say
Maybe these simple words will do best to best explain
What I feel in my heart, what I feel more each day (oh)
How to make you see
How to let you know
How to say how to say
How I love you so
With words you understand
Words that get right through to your heart
Here's a place to start

Tu amor (tu amor)
I will always be
Tu amor (tu amor)
Means the world to me
Esterás siempre en mi corazón
You're the one in my soul
And I live for
Tu amor (tu amor)
Tu amor

Mi amor, love you more with each look in your eyes
Maybe these simple words will do best to best describe
What I feel in my heart, what I'll feel for all time oh
How to make you see
How to let you know
How to say how to say
How I need you so
With words you understand
Words that get right through to your soul
Words that let you know

Tu amor (tu amor)
I will always be
Tu amor (tu amor)
Means the world to me
Esterás siempre en mi corazón
You're the one in my soul
And I live for
Tu amor (tu amor)

You're the one I need in my arms
Believe me these words I say
Are words that come straight from my heart
How do I make you believe
Nothing else means as much
As what you mean to me

[Poncho] & (Anahí whisper)
Tu eres la unica en mi alma (Tu eres el unico en mi alma)
Yo te quiero (Yo te quiero)
Te adoro (Te adoro)
Tus labios (Tus labios)
Tus ojos (Tus ojos)
Mi amor (Mi amor)

Tu amor (tu amor)
I will always be
Tu amor (tu amor)
Means the world to me
Esterás siempre en mi corazón
You're the one in my soul
And I live for
Tu amor (tu amor)

[This following part is only on the album version:]
Tu amor (tu amor)
Tu amor (tu amor)
Tu amor! (tu amor)

I will always be (tu amor)
You te quiero, te adoro mi amor (tu amor)
I will always be (tu amor)
(mi amor)

Esterás siempre en mi corazón
Esterás siempre en mi corazón
(tu amor)
Esterás siempre en mi corazón
Esterás siempre en mi corazón
(tu amor)

Mi amor

"i just love this song. It's so sweet!"